I’ve known a lot of people, myself included, who spend more time wanting to not be alive than to be alive and that’s a condition we’ve been fighting since we were too young to do basic long division.
A lot of us are still here and I don’t know what we’re doing but whatever it is, it’s working.
If you’re not ready for a relationship, that’s fine. But please don’t lead someone on, making them think you do want something. It just crushes them.